Finally back home. Haha, that was just now. But now i'm blogging for just now. Spend two nights over at darling's! ;-) At least some quality time spent againZ. Not like those days when he only spends day life with me and night life with his friends. Oi! It's not like i can't go out @ night right! Mf! Nehmind, whatever it is, still love darling ttm, hehe ;-)

Caught Zombieland on the second night with Darl, Fred and Felicia @ town. Oh, the movie's great. Quite funny too. But not to that extent like how Fred laughs. Haha, you should have heard it man. The noisiest in the theatre, i should say? :x

Got home around 11pm today. Around midnight earlier, went slacking with Jasper and Kj. Had supper then went home. Gonna go over to his west coast house tmrw. His mum's gonna cook, he said. Okok, should get my stomach really empty tmrw too. Because, i'm used to wasting food @ his place, hehe. So, i should impress his momma a lil' by eating like a hippo right? :-)

All right.......... It's kinda disappointing that darl doesn't let me send him off to camp! >:@ Because he's afraid that other guys will see me and all those nonsense! Zzz. At least i know that my heart's only for him what. Lol, okok. Nevermind, must understand that he's immature-minded at times :x I miss him all of a sudden now and my neck's aching like broken bones. Gonna grab something to eat later, go food haunting around the house then off to bed yo.

There's a reason why these photos are posted.
And these are at least 2 years ago!

Hahaha. I just want ya'll to look at my legs! Miss my fat legs/thighs last time. Now i believe that i've lost so much weight now. Lolol. Many people wanna be skinny, but not me. I think i'm currently too skinny already :( Lols, and if there's such things as "giving fats to one another", i wanna go for it. Fat people! Gimme some fats man!

Alright, meeting darl later. Don't know what's the plan either. Wanna watch movies, but don't have ic today. So yeah, blame me for being too young. She's better hor? Lol. Cb, darling also don't know how to plan things uh? Everything push to the last minute. Now my bag's at his place also. Later he's bringing it over to my place, and i'm sure he'll blame me for being slow again. Because my make-ups are all in that bag. Will be back on wednesday then. Bye all :-)

H8 Miley Cyrus man. Especially her voice. Sis is watching her movie now. My ear drums seems like their gonna burst soon! Lol, well, i think she looks better in the farm or something because she's looks like a donkey somehow. Argh, irritating bitch! Oh! Staying w darl tmrw till the day before he book in :-) He said he wants to go shopping? Hahaha. Buy presents better la, your ex gf's birthday's coming! Ciao!

The very shag face. LOL

Spent Friday night in m'sia. Ahhhh! The night's a torture. I vomitted like waterfall and i almost died. HAHA, i swear i felt like dying while vomitting. But it's alright. Darling's always there to keep me alive. He also, another adorable one. Got drunk till he couldn't rmb where am i when he actually accompanied me to the toilet. I was in the cubical and i heard him crying out asking for me. HAHAHA! Okok, even though the night wasn't that fun like usual, but at least i got to keep good memories once again, and i'm satisfied by alot! There was quite a number of us who went there. So, after clubbing there, booked a hotel room to stay.

Well, it's a like finally that i got to talk to darling with my whole heart. I mean, normally we only had the time talking over the phone or texting thru messenger or in smses. Shed some tears, but more feelings grew this time. Even though he told me some stuffs about the time when we broke up. Turn-off by alot, but it's okay, i understand. Me too, i do flirt when we broke up. But as in, only verbally. But whatever it is, now we're back together and now the feeling for each other somehow got back to how it used to be, we'll just treasure it this moment on. Alright. Got back to singapore at evening time. Had dinner at west coast w darling and 2 other then went home :-) Wow, took the most comfortable nap after reaching home just now, wtf.

It's exactly one week before you go in. Woah, time really past so fast. Meeting darl tomorrow, he promised me for a movie date before going jamming. LOL. The word's inspired by Jason. To make darl happy, that's why i promised to go even though i don't feel like going.... haha.

Woke up fucking late just now. I slept around 8am and woke up at almost 9.30pm! Fucking late and long. I don't know why too! But i swear i didn't sneak out nor dope any sleeping drug okay. I used to suffer from insomnia last time, but i've recovered already. Oh well, but i remember that i dreamt of something really scary. Haha, it's about 2012. None of the dream was from that movie, it's a movie of my own. Lololol, pretty cool, actually.

HAHAHA. I look so weird here :(

Almost forgot about updating my blog again. Haha. It's surprising to hear darling say that he wants more photos of me and him together. Lol! Is it because he's going into NS? Hehe. Many photos or not, i still love him so much :-) Woke up at around 4pm ytd evening. Lol, i could have slept longer, but darling asked me to wake him up at 4pm, in the end, didn't knew that he sold away his bike practice slot. So after waking up, i couldn't sleep anymore. Weew, that's too bad. That's why i'm tired so soon right now.

Darling only woke up at 8pm plus? Late right! Wonder what made him wake up so late! *gives curious look* Alright. Relaxed, prepared and all then went over to his place. It was around 11pm when i reached? Oh, another surprising thing about darling when i came. He was watching the TV. Hahahah, omg. It's like, once in a long long time, i'll see him sitting on the sofa in the hall. Watched stupid movies then watched him play his maple. Around 2am, went to the prata shop to have supper. And around 3am plus, i went home. Love you darling! :D

Wow, it's 4.13am already. Time past so fast, seriously. LOL! Woke up at 6pm yesterday evening. Late right? Luckily darling called. If not i'd be spending the whole day sleeping. Hahaha. Well, as he knows i'm slow at preparing, he booked another evaluation thingy to past time. After he's done, i'm also done. It took him about 45 minutes to finish that session. Okay, met him at Clementi, then went down to his place. Slacked, watched him play his damn maple, and watched the teevee. Hahaa. His mum's finally home. Missed her =x Okay, i'm not a lesbian, but she's a nice mummy.

Right. Slacked there till around midnight? Then off to macs for supper. Ooh, the shaker fries is finally back. Hahaha. Love it and missed it :-) After supper, had a stroll around West Coast Park then he accompanied me to get a cab home. Oh wellz. Today was okay, nothing much of a excitement. Around 2am just now, met Powei for supper and slacking again then got home around 3.20am.

Lol, eh seriously i need a girlfriend right beside me now can. I seriously wanna gossip already. So many shit is going on right now. All about girls, girls and girls. So irritating can. If only i was a guy. I won't need to worry as much as how girls do. As in, girls get their heart broken easily, girls can sad easily, girls get bla bla bla and bla easily. Well, so i guess being a guy is so much better.

Eh? Seems like darling's soul finally came back. Hahahaha. Nabei, at first wanna act one dao, now say wanna go back to last time. Chut many stun huh? Okay, whatever. I love him too :-) Said that we must give in to one another, but somethings, i will not give in. Darling should know well of it, i suppose. I need not blog about it huh? Later you claim that your friends are reading it and it makes you lose face and all, bla bla bla. I don't give a fuck, seriously. I blog what ihave in mind, okay darling? :-)

Movie at town today with darling. Caught Case 39. Oh well, the movie isn't that bad, kinda interesting too. But it shocked darling like, countless times. Omg, and because of the shocking scene, he hurt me again. LOL. Fancy squeezing my arm too tight when it came to this particular scene that he got shocked at. And it felt like it's bruised now. HAHAHA. I'm not being extreme, but seriously, painful :'( It felt like the movie's long, but it turned out quite okay? Hehe. After the movie, had supper at Hk Cafe. Like finally he'd rather go those places to eat? Felt like heaven ah. Haha, okay. Hopefully tmrw will be a better day. H8 today like fuck, i swear.

I don't care if you're his ex girlfriend. I don't. Yes, i know what you said about being impossible to go back tgt again, i never said i didn't believe it, did i? I just told Peng siong a story about something, now he then realised how it felt like. It's because he never thought of it, that's why he claims that i'm thinking too much, being too young, or whatever. And i hope peng siong will stop talking about you. I don't like it, i hate it, and it's irritating if he keeps whining.

Overdue photos.

No mood to blog man. Annice asked me to blog, that's why i did. LOL. She must feel honored okay :-) Caught Ninja Assasin 2 days ago, and Twilight New Moon last night. Ninja Assasin is good :-) Nice movie, so as Twilight. Haha. Omg, rain's hot. Exclude his hairstyle in that movie. His body is so hot. LOL. Okay, i sound like a pervert now, but i love Rain. Hehe.

I agree. You don't even know what you want.

Alright, had some true fun times with friends these days. And i enjoyed :-) Went out w Sheila just now and i swear, we had a hell of a good time! HAHA. Steamboat-ing, eating till we're damn full and many many stuffs. Photos and videos all uploaded in Facebook. Will upload them in my blog another time :-)

Anyway, it's 6.35am now, and i just came home. Was out w Izdi and the others slacking at Clem. Izdi called and told me that he'll be back from work a little late, and he couldn't meet Wee Kiat yet. So since Wee Kiat was around the area, i went to look for him first. Lol! He look like some bangala man. Standing around doing nothing. And what's worst is that, i can't even get thru Izdi's phone line. LOL. I took awhile to come down, so in case if i go down and no one's there already, i can call and ask right? But luckily he was still there. Izdi only came at least and hour later. Slacked, slacked, slacked and slacked. Oh, Izdi's birthday's coming. Hahahaha. Alright, i'm turning in after washing up. Fucking hell tired.

Well, things just can't get the better of it. Sigh, it's depressing working hard and getting nothing in return or getting the worst of it in return. I don't know what i want now, and i don't know what to do. I'm in pain everyday, and it just gets worse each day. I want to fly, fly far away where no one will every find me anymore.

Our souls exchanged. It's pretty obvious. The way you treated me now is totally like the way i treated you back then. Rude and not understanding. I should endure, right? I read all the past msgs from you, and i think, i've figured out the answer to my key question. Yes, i'm sure. And i think i know how to fix it. Well, i don't know if it works, but imma gonna try this technique which i've figured out.

I'm not sad. Neither am i feeling heart broken. I'm just feeling blue, clueless and lifeless. How long am i gonna feel this way? I wonder about this question every single night before turning in. We're not separated, neither have we broken up. It's just that things weren't the same anymore. Things weren't as sweet as before. You've become less understanding while i've become so understanding. We were texting yesterday, and i started saying sarcastic stuffs which i used to say last time, and this time, you started scolding me on the phone and starting saying negative stuffs which you won't do last time. You always wanted things to be okay last time and you always text me sweet stuffs on how you feel towards this relationship every night last time. But now, like i said, i think our souls exchanged. This time, these things were all i do every night now. What about you? Always replying my text late and short, not calling me and sending bitter negative goodnight msgs which i always do before.

I wonder why things have now come this way....? I missed the way it looked before, even now. (F) I missed the old you. And i've regretted about the way i've treated you before. If only typing this can change everything..... Sigh.

Alright, haven't had much time to blog since. Lol, prom, graduation and all. Omg. What a busy week. But it's over now. Hahahaha. Prom was alright, nothing much like what i thought. Dad scolded me for the expensive dress i bought when it's just for one night :'( The Prom king and queen wasn't who i expected would be too. But it's okay. Hahaha. Congrats to Missyella and i-don't-know who :-) Oh, and thanks Mrs Janice Chan for the dance after prom. Haha! Because i thought there wouldn't be any dance as you claimed that the principle doesn't allows. And lastly, i've finally graduated from secondary school! Omg, i'm so happy, i don't know why. Guess my classmates and i wouldn't contact anymore. Even if we do, i'm sure we'll still only stay in touch for that very first few months. And after that, we'll all separate. Like me. I don't treasure friendships, so i'm saying this. Good luck on your future endeavours everyone :-)

Darling and i were finally back together after a 3 week break up. Well, i should say that's a time-off rather than a break up. But whatever it is, i still love him as deep as before, and i will start changing for the sake of him and the relationship. Had been spending almost all the time i had with him during this past 3 weeks. Watching movies together with just you, or with you and your friends, grabbing your arms when i was shivering in the theatre or watching horror movies with you, having you to accompany me hunt for my prom dress until we were so hungry and tired, bringing you to eat your favourite dessert in town rather than going far far away to taste it, giving me that warm hugs whenever i asked for it, fetching me after my prom night, and telling me that you still love me :-) I love you, peng siong. I won't lose you again, i promise.